Today,I walked past to the gate of my high school. There was a big screen. It showed names of the students who made great progress in the examination and their words which could inspire other people. They will take part in the college entrance examination in June. Everyday is very important to them. As far as I am concerned, the screen is extremely unreasonable. How can we judge people by an exam?
It reminded me of my high school life. Other people said that they thought the third year in high school was the most significant time in their lives because they made their utmost effort to realize dreams.
To me, it was the darkest moment in my life. I pretended to be very happy and led a very careful life. I was very sensitive at that time. I kept thinking other people's comments about me. I tended to doubt people's intent when they looked at me.
Our teachers urged us to work hard to enter a better university. We were asked to make full use of every second. We needed to study from 7:00A.M. to 10:00 P.M. I usually got up at 6:30 A.M. and went to bed at 12:00P.M At the beginning, we could take a nap at home but then we were asked to take a nap in the class room, so we could save time to do exercise. We could only have half of a day to take a rest.
I studied just like a spinning wheel. We didn't have time to relax. Though I tried my best to study I still failed to concentrate my energy. In the classes breaks , I used the time to finish my homework. When other people talked with me, I thought they just wasted my time.
I hated this kind of education. They restricted our nature. We were judged by some emotionless numbers. I gained weight in the third year. My class teacher thought I didn't work hard otherwise I would lose weight instead of gaining weight. I felt very self-abased at that time and blamed myself because of his words. I found out that people tend to gain weight when they face great pressure.
At that time, when I felt disappointed, I would fantisize about my university life and thought I would meet a handsome boy in library.